But that doesn't mean people will restrain themselves from their views on "what's wrong" with me. If I only gave up this food or worked a little harder or whatever. I have had intelligent women make comments to me, often starting with, "Don't take this the wrong way...." before they thank me for be a "real sized woman" who is a good role model. What the hell is a "real sized woman" any way? Seriously?
I often tell the story of two 20-something waif-like chippies in the locker room loudly opining I should be embarrassed to be seen at the gym because I was so old and fat. (I stuck my head out from around the corner and reminded them I was fat, not deaf, to their dismay.) It's something women like me face on a regular basis. I realize that fat people aren't naturally jolly, we develop a sense of humor to deal with ignorant twits we run into all the time.
Then my sister in law posted a link to this on facebook:
Last summer a friend and I were out and we saw a young woman who was easily a "plus sized" woman. She was wearing a tight tank top and short shorts and she was laughing and happy and confident. I sighed and said, "I wish I had her confidence to dress like that."
My friend agreed. That young woman is my hero and she will probably never know that.
I do make an effort to eat healthy, ice cream will always be my Achilles heel and I will probably shed some weight only so I can start running a faster mile. But the truth is, the next time someone judges me, it will be a struggle to remember that I'm OK as I am. But this girl can, and does, all the time.